why..

Heath Ledger found dead in New York

"NEW YORK - Actor Heath Ledger, the gifted leading man acclaimed for his role as a gay cowboy in the film "Brokeback Mountain," was found dead in his Manhattan apartment on Tuesday, possibly of a drug overdose, police said. - Reuters"

I was deeply saddened when I heard the news over dzbb yesterday! How could a beautiful, talented man die so sudden .. at a very young age .. Ang dami naman diyang iba..

Haaay ..

one of my favorite movies of all time.. THE PATRIOT.

i admired heath the first time in this movie .. even before BROKEBACK.

:(

bored .. zzz

Three days and I’ve been home killing time.. Haha! It’s one of those rare occasions when I get the chance to bum around.

Usually, im in front of the computer surfing the net!

I check the recap of my favorite US suspense drama priosnbreak.. chat non-sense with strangers for few minutes, check my mail every 15 minutes, trying to get busy playing travel agent with our upcoming trip to Singapore and Malaysia (again). Then I will check on my friendster account and see nothing of importance, so I will snoop on other’s accounts.. ex’s accounts, stranger’s accounts, for all I care!

Then when I get oh-so bored, I will read the book that im reading for 6 months now and still 2 chapters away from ‘fin’ .. I try my best to take off my mind from getting to the fridge or the kitchen so I could at least, not loose, but prevent fats to add up to my bulging hips and tummy!

But my eyes could only take soo much words and paragraphs at the moment.. or maybe it is just my attention span slipping away! it’s getting shorter and shorter everyday, I noticed!

So I would doodle with my old cell phone,. And prepaid simcard, looking for someone interesting to text! I would text my researcher from time to time asking for story updates, trying hard not to be intrusive and nosy and bitchy at the same time!

But it seems, my cell phone is not so enticing… after all, it only has a ‘talk and text’ feature!

So I would play with my brother.. play more.. and I love that bonding moments with him (with my mom too).. But too often, he would be annoyed by my presence and would shun me away.

So I would seek refuge again from my room .. and then face the computer again!

Whattaboring life! Haha.. Especially if ur stuck at home because ur saving every penny you have for your out of the country getaway! but I am thankful..

I should be ready for my airing weeks, then sleep would be a luxury again! And all these would be history ..(again)

i look forward to ...

february 3-10 2008 .. the wandergurl will wander the streets of singapore and malaysia again. though, ive been there two years ago, i still look forward to a different experience with my mom and jeco. and of course this city ..

genting

I also look forward to the Asian tour of Cinderella on July 2008. Can't wait to see my biggest icon .. Lea Salonga in person (again)! i hope to have a picture with her this time :)

Who knows? *winks* *winks* DREAM BIG!

reminiscing

When clock hit 12 today, I was busy like the doctors of East Avenue Medical Center. They were busy attending to patients; me and my crew were busy doing our program’s yearly coverage.

This is my third time to cover ER on a New Year’s Eve. It’s sad that I missed our family’s New Year celebration for the third time but more than that, it’s heartbreaking for me to miss that few seconds of thanksgiving prayers that I usually utter few seconds before the year ends.

That personal moment, where in a flash, I make recollections of the things, events and persons that became part of my year, with a silent prayer and wishes of a better year ahead.

Because I was too busy with work, I failed to do that.. and didn’t get the chance to do it even right after coverage because I was too sleepy.

At around 10 am, I woke up with familiar songs from my computer. I was still dozed but I managed to ask my sister, “where did you get those music? “

“from your files.” she answered.

I wondered in silence. I thought those files were already deleted.. But as they were playing in the background, it was like I was walking memory lane, back in 2005.

In January 2005, exactly three yeas ago, I made one bold decision in my career. I left Emergency without any concrete career plan. All I wanted was to break free from the very challenging demands of being one of the program’s researchers.

I celebrated my newly-coveted-freedom in the beach. It was so perfect.. I was in a daze. I felt like I was in some kind of a movie taking notes of the soundtrack playing in the background..

And when I got back in Manila, I was jobless but very happy.

I chose to immortalize my first month of that year in a ‘soundtrack ng buhay ko!” I bought a Personal Computer, I downloaded those songs, and made two copies.

Soon I got back to work, cuz I was running out of cash .. and totally forgot about those songs and the files. I thought they were already deleted from my PC, until I heard almost all of the tracks today. And for a while, I felt that same happiness that eventful month of January.

That year when I chose to do what I really wanted to do. That year when I was fearless not knowing what to do.. And though the months after were difficult for me, I would always go back to that moment of happiness. It was short, compressed, but definitely complete!

And today, as I face another year.. I pray that I may have the courage to face the unknown, maybe embrace changes, be bolder and conquer new territories. I want to explore more beaches, visit more countries, meet new people, hear more songs and make more memories.